(This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental)
For as long as I can remember, ANA has been the only one I needed. She came to my life on a glorious mid-summer day in 2001, and at first glance I knew she was the one for me.
Every time I was with her I felt complete. I often regretted that I had not met her sooner, and felt like the previous years of my life was wasted. I thought about her everyday. Time spend together became an addiction. It was only when with her that I felt like nothing was missing. Before love seemed like a fairytale, the only proof of it being through films and music. Now, all of a sudden Life made sense afterall.
I had planted myself for the long haul. She made me feel ‘Invincible.’ It was everything I could ask for. We travelled a lot, made unforgettable memories and perfection became realisation. We had our ups and downs, they all do, but the deeper understanding and the loyalty towards each other always meant we would stand the test of time.
We married with the blessings of everyone known to us. We knew we were in for a challenge, but we were ready for it. The time felt right. I have never been a man who can settle though. Everytime something good was achieved, I was waiting for the next challenge to further enhance my life. Thankfully, she shared that same competitive spirit.
She had to give up her job because we moved houses and the financial restrictions slowly started to have an effect on us. Suddenly we were facing our biggest test yet. Her smile still made me assured because it never lost its verve, it was a bridge to the golden days. Not that there wasn’t any distractions.
I would readily admit I am human. When RACHEL joined as an new employee, I nearly fell to the trap. She was everything that Ana wasn’t. She had a wild side and more importantly, during initial flirtations she was very keen to pass on the message that it was finally about me again. It was exciting, it was new and she made it perfectly clear how much she needed me.
It was hard. Work meant I had to spend more and more time with Rachel as the months went on. The temptation was running high, but her desperation became ever so apparent. It was spilling beyond control and novelty value quickly wore off. Her obsession competing with Ana became too much. The fact that I wouldn’t give in, unmasked her. Her weak points made me appreciate Ana for what she truly was. People often say you don’t know what you have until you have lost it. Not true. I realised what I had without losing Ana. It took mediocrity of somebody else to open my eyes.
Now, there’s JENNIFER. Jennifer is completely different to any woman I have ever been with before. She’s truly unique. In many ways, I feel as though what she offers me may be more suited to where I am in my life. I’m no longer an impressionable teenager like I was when I first met Ana. I’m a man of substance now.
The other thing is, my friends have never exactly taken to Ana. They look at Jennifer and say for a man of my age and maturity, she is the perfect partner. But they don’t know Ana like I do; she’s a weird case. They’re unable to see what I see. They don’t know what we have been through together; what we have shared. They weren’t there. She has been there for me when nobody else was. When I’ve felt as though I have nothing worth living for, she has changed that just by being there. It’s that kind of affiliation that Jennifer can never compete with, no matter how attractive she may be.
When it’s all said and done, I know who it is I want to be with. I know who it is that I want to spend the rest of my life. I try to remind you how valuable you are to me whenever I can but, Ana, I’m sorry if I haven’t done that often enough. However, I do need something from you.
It’s time we turn our marriage into something beyond meaningful. It’s time I see your spark from a toddler’s eyes. Don’t ever think a new addition to our family would mean I would suddenly overlook you. You will always be the guardian of our family. The rock that would manage all finer things in our household. It’s just that the time has come for us to reinvent ourselves and look for the future.
You will always be the love of my life. The sole reason why I am what I am today. As long as you hold your end of the bargain, I promise to keep mine till the end of days.
Arsene, In You I Trust. And I Always Will.